So was kinda kicking myself in the ass over the whole girlfriend having to move away thing. Mainly because I'm just not experienced in relationships , hell, I've never really even had one. Anyway , getting back on topic. Her and I went to see the hobbit: desolation of smaug movie. I was really impressed with it even though I spent more time trying to remember reading things from the book, and she can attest to the few times I audibly said "what?" During the movie.
We ended up discussing us after the movie. She isn't planning on staying in Birmingham but we have decided we are gonna stick with it. I refuse to let my irrational fear of failure and paranoia about every little thing that could go wrong. I'm sticking with it. And a lot of days it's hard. But being who I was is also about beating my mindset
Also got to chill with our newest members to the game group, and they really have grown on me very much. One of them and been really good with advice on my issues and the other is just great for a laugh and is so knowledgable about so many things.
And this is one of the big things has been having close friends to talk with about some of the hard topics that I've never really be comfortable in talking about or even thinking about. I might eventually bring them up here now but that is a big step I'm not ready to take yet or admit to some people still.
SO FOR THIS WEEK MENTAL SCORE : 5.
Just since it's the first week and we'll really don't have a data point to grade from yet and this will be a good week to base everything on
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